Frustration

Someone said that the best way to avoid disappointment it's to not expect anything from anyone, but sometimes it seems impossible not to.

I was hoping yesterday to be amazing, I was waiting to be spoiled, to feel loved and appreciated, but it really wasn't like that... 

Just another day, with a different dinner, but pretty much the same... Intimately? That was the worst part😓... I didn't feel anything, and I felt like he wasn't feeling anything either... It was like another task to do, not a moment of pleasure, of enjoyment, it was pure physical and even so,i wasn't good...

I have this feeling that he's seeing someone else, but I haven't been able to confirm it...

And so, now I keep having this frustration feeling... This void, this lack of something good in my life and I really don't know how to fix it.